I feel awful. I can't deal with depression anymore. My friend is on the fence about killing herself and everyone us leaving me I can't do this Everyone in my school sees me as happy but I am dying in the inside

I don’t know what to say, I am very sorry. I think getting help from doctors would be a first step, it might help a lot so please, look into it. You can also talk to me whenever you want, I’ll listen. Come off anon and I’ll give you my number or whatever so we can text or call, if you want to. You’re strong, hang in there kitty! <3